It's really crazy to think I am going to be a parent. No one can tell you what pregnancy is like either. Its worth being sick. I have actually had a good couple of days, that I am grateful for.

I just turned 23 yesterday. I certainly don't feel it. I feel older. I guess because I look at other people and most of 'em are not at this stage and alot of 'em are still in college or beginning their careers or just getting married. I am grateful for this little one though. This little one that I asked for is our little miracle baby. I guess even though I asked for this little one, I am scared. Scared what kind of parent I am going to be, scared of what she or he is going to go through, scared of he or she hating me because what child doesn't go through those stages. It just all seems crazy, but obvioulsy God thought it was time and He thought that both Sammie and I are healthy enough to take care of him or her. Sammie, of course, isn't scared at all. I swear that man is fearless, I am sure its because he has been through scarier things. Anyways March 2nd is my next doc appointment...just a check up no ultrasound. Tatta Tatta for now.