Surprises

So I am not going to put anything on Facebook yet, but I wanted to I guess vent in way. Yesterday, I had gone to buy a little bottle of gin. Well, when I got back home I wanted to take a pregnancy test to make sure I wasn't pregnant before I drank. It came back positive with the faintest of lines. I told Sammie then said I was going to get more. I took another one and it was a more expensive brand and that one was an obvious positive. Of course, by this point I am just a little freaked out.

I woke up this morning pretty much thinking it was all a dream. I decided to go to Walgreens and get a digital one since all the pregnancy tests I was taking all had faint lines. (The one earlier was obvious, but still faint.) At this point, I needed to see the word. I was in denial I guess. So I get home this morning and luckily I had to pee! I took it and two minutes later it came up with the words. There is just no denying it now. I am pregnant with our second child.

Of course, since Sammie changed jobs, we won't have insurance for another month. So after May 9th I will go to the doctors office. I am most likely due December or the beginning of Janurary. I am grateful, but Sammie and I were by no means planning this. I am glad that Lucy will have a close sibling. I am sure they will be the best of friends. Personally, I believe its a girl. I want to name her Addison (because I love the name) Cheryl (After Sammies aunt) Meade.

My brother and I were five years apart. So, it was like being raised only children. I am so glad that I will be able to give Lucy an experience I haven't experienced. Despite my brother and I being so far apart we are all still really close. Thats how my family is and thats what I love about my family. They put love and forgiveness first and realize the everyone is going to make mistakes. We communicate if we have a problem and if there is a bridge burnt down, then we build it back up. I hope and pray that the family that I am creating and have right now with Sammie, will be like that!

I do have concerns too. I love Lucy Meade so much. I can't imagine loving something as much as I love her! She is such a JOY!!!! She is a light. She laughs so much and there is nothing like going to places and people telling me I have such a happy baby! Its wonderful. LOL! Anyways, I know people that have had babies this close together and were ok! I believe in my abilities. I also believe in the promise that Christ doesn't give us anything we can't handle.

I am also incredibly lucky to have a man that, I think, was more excited when I told him than me! This will definately different. I will certainly breastfeed, but since I will have Lucy I will probably supplement with formula...especially at night. :) I hope I have good time management skills!!! Anyways, despite that this will be hard, I think it could be a fun adventure! Well, Ta-Ta for now!