I am so grumpy these days. People are so irritating. If some people knew what I think sometimes, they would never hang out with me again. Now its not everybody just some people. I've been really anxious lately and I am looking forward to this next doctors check-up to ease my mind.
I know no one wants to read a bunch of complaining, but I am going to anyways.
I'm gonna start with the dogs. I wish I had less dogs. Maybe it because I am more of a cat person, but I cannot stand the dog fur and the dog noises. The barking, waking up my child, really makes me mad. Simba is the loudest butthead (I'm trying to keep this PG) out of all of them. The older he gets, the grumpier he gets, and that means the louder he gets. I will spank him and the son of a butt will growl or talk back to me. You have no idea how this makes me want to lose my temper and show him who is boss. Pixel is sweet. I love her she is my favorite...except for when it comes to the pixel fur. She has tuffs of fur coming off of her right now and even though I might brush her, my carpet still looks like it wearing a toupee a day after I vacuum! SO FRUSTRATING!!!! I feel like no matter how much I clean, its NEVER good enough! Butter....ugh...butter. The OCD freak that has a few too many wires loose for my taste. All she does is lick and lick and lick and lick and chew and lick and chew and lick....and then chews on baby clothes and ONLY baby clothes because she is a jealous OCD freak. Not to mention, she is by far the stupidest dog I have ever met on the face of the planet. She will bark at her own shadow. And forget about discipline because if you spank her, she will pee everywhere and cause a bigger mess. Clyde is ok. Too me he is a little high maintenance because he has allergies, and he is a big baby. He also snores like a human and I have HAD IT with the snoring!!! He snores just like Sammie and can start snoring as soon as his head hits the floor.
People are irritating and I can't tell you how many people I have hidden on Facebook just so I don't have to listen to them. Maybe people have done the same thing. I just don't care. I mostly can't stand the judgemental people who think they know everything.....which is judgemental. The only difference is, is that I do know everything....hahaha. JUST kidding. I think I just wish people could view life differently and less about themselves. Sometimes when I look at the things people are freaking out over I think, "There are just so many bigger things in life to worry about." I think that comes from living in India though.
Second thing, is not necessarily a complaint, but more of how I feel lately. I think people look down upon me. Maybe, they do. Sometimes I quote scripture and they probably think, "She cusses. She has an attitude." Or whatever else they might look down on. The thing is, is who can really say what a Christian is suppose to act like? We are all sinners. I just don't think humans can judge that. We are not suppose to be the judges in this life and frankly if I answer to anyone, it is Jesus Christ. So if you tell me that I don't act "Christ like" please go look in the mirror and say to yourself, "wow that statement wasn't "Christ like". I think a lot of people know how I feel about Christ. I feel like I have an amazing, loving relationship with him. I feel like after the "religious' things were removed and everything became more about our relationship, it opened my eyes. What I mean by "religious" things are the "shoulds" that people place in our heads of how we are all suppose to be like. Once those things were removed, I feel like I could hear HIS voice instead of everyone elses. Plus HIS voice is the only one that matters. I can truly say I love Him and his love has been made complete in me like 1 John says. I feel that once my eyes were opened I could see what this life is really about. It isn't about being perfect or acting a certain way, but it is about love and how we love others. When I read the New Testament, all I hear is that word: Love. Our ability to love is so important. Forgiveness, thoughtfullness, are all ways of showing others that no matter how stupid I think you are, I still love you. And I think a lot of people are stupid. Like not flipping someone off because they cut me off, but praising Jesus I didn't run into them and we are safe! (That is kind of a joke, and its just an example :) ) I am not perfect at this, and never will be. Perfection is an impossibility since humans are born into sin. I try my best though and I will say it is incredibly hard to do while pregnant.
Being pregnant is annoying to me right now because I have to pee all the time, and other various pregnancy symptoms(like heartburn). I know I will be grateful once he/she is here, but going through this is really hard for me right now. I am very lucky to have a husband who has been incredibly patient with me, but also keeping me in my place. Sammie is honest with me and he communicates, which makes me respect him.
I don't really have anything else to say...THE END.
